Watercolours, trauma and neuroscience

“… And what can give a child hope – or take it away?  As you might expect, I believe that hope is a brain-mediated capability. Hope is the internal representation of a better world; essentially a belief that things can be better. It is, in essence, a memory.” (Bruce D..Perry, from Brief: Reflections on Childhood, Trauma and Society)

As I mentioned in the previous post I was planning to write about David Livingston Smith’s book, On Inhumanity: Dehumanization and How to Resist It, but even though I’ve finished reading it I haven’t yet got round to writing the post I intended, Instead today I’m presenting some basic points made by Dr Bruce Perry in his book, Brief: Reflections on Childhood, Trauma and Society. Meanwhile, I’ve been playing around with water colours, and am posting some pages from my painting pad.

I think the first article related to trauma and neuroscience that I read, many years ago, was written by Dr Bruce Perry. I have probably referred to it in some of the earlier things I wrote for this website. Then I went on to read the book he co-authored with Maia Szalavitz: The Boy Who was Raised as a Dog, and then for a couple of years I occasionally read material related to the Child Tauma Academy.  In a recent podcast I was listening to I was reminded of his work, which then lead to my re-reading Brief and this post.

Perry is a child psychiatrist, neuroscientist, author of books and many articles, teacher, clinician and researcher in children’s mental health. His more recent clinical research has been focused on integrating principles of developmental neuroscience into clinical practice. He and his colleagues have developed The Neurosequential Model, a developmentally sensitive, neurobiology-informed approach to clinical work, education and care giving.

In the first essay of the book he explains an important concept:  Biological Relativity.  Perry begins by asserting that the relative impact of time [time lost or time invested] is greatest during our early life. He describes how hours in infancy have more power to shape us than months in middle age. He writes: “Indeed, humanity was created in childhood. This is so because of biological relativity. In brief, a biological system is influenced by any experience relative to the rate of change in that system. The power of time and experience, therefore, is increased in rapidly changing systems.” For humans, Perry says the greatest rate of change takes place during our developmental years, and, of all of our body’s systems, the most dynamic, complex and rapidly changing is our brain, and it is the  properties of the human brain that allow us our humanity. He explains that the human brain has the amazing capacity to store, categorize, process, modify and pass elements from experience to the next generation, and that complex things like democracy, economies, amazing technologies, social justice, and so on, are not “inevitable genetic manifestations of the human brain; rather they are the distilled products of thousands of generations of experience. It is in this socio-cultural distillate — the collective memory of family, community and culture — that an individual child grows.”

In childhood, Perry says: “time and experience are magnified, amplified and empowered by the opportunity to express our genetic potential — or not.” By age three, the emotional, behavioral, cognitive and social foundation for the rest of life is more or less in place. So, it is easy to understand how trauma, neglect and repetitive instances of less than optimal attunement between child and caregivers / environment can determine both the expression of potential and the quality of health and adult life. He writes that during early childhood, the organizing neural networks that are developing require touch, sight, sound, smell and movement in order to develop normally. In the absence of experiences of sufficient duration or quality, some of the genetic potential of the individual will be lost. He explains that an infant born in a hunter-gatherer clan 20,000 years ago, for instance, had the genetic potential to read, write, play piano or understand the double-helix of DNA, but instead he / she learned to distinguish animal tracks, throw a stick with precision and read the visual-spatial cues of terrain. Mozart, he writes could not have composed had he never heard music in his early childhood.

Perry provides examples to support the idea that our childhood experiences, matter and they contribute greatly to the creation of the person. For some people these early organizing childhood experiences are consistent, nurturing, structured and enriched, with few adverse experiences, and for others, they tend to be more impoverished, neglectful, chaotic, even violent and threatening. In chapter 10, he again highlights the power of first experiences to shape – for better or worse – future perceptions, interactions and behaviors, and discusses how these early experiences provide the template for subsequent similar experiences. He writes that for many decades, he and his colleagues have been living and working with maltreated and traumatized children, and that they have tried hard to understand the impact of developmental trauma, neglect, and other adverse experiences on these children, in order to support them in the healing process. During this process they found that one of the most useful exercises clinically was to begin to think about what was actually happening in the brain of the child during development and during the actual moment to moment interactions at home, school or therapy.

They included neurobiology and neurodevelopment into their clinical mix, which allowed them to gain new insights about origins of symptoms and the reasons that some clinical or educational efforts were inadequate or ineffective. To understand the power of first experiences we need to consider the fact that the brain has the capacity to “pair” or connect patterns of neural activity that co-occur.  Perry writes: “Two or more incoming sensory signals taking place at the same time with sufficient frequency or intensity become “associated” (e.g., the sight of mother’s face, the sensation of sucking and the feeling of becoming satiated).  This association –or connection – is created by making and then reinforcing new synaptic connections; essentially creating a new memory. For a newborn with an attentive, attuned and nurturing mother, a complex set of associations is created.” This becomes the infant’s first “memory” of the nature and quality of what a human being is, and as the infant grows, this early memory acts as a template for future human interactions.

Our brain, despite its complexity and its capacity to make many synaptic connections, only creates new memory when the experience is unique and not similar to prior experiences. If they seem similar the brain simply processes the new interaction as a current version of something already experienced. and this essentially reinforces the existing memory template. Additionally, by the time we are four years old, we more or less have experienced some version of most of the sensory, motor, emotional and even cognitive elements of life, and thus, have created the working templates for what a caregiver is; for how reliable and trustworthy people are; for whether the world is predictable or chaotic; and so on. So, neglected, traumatized or maltreated children have created a catalogue of templates about humans, relationships and the world that simply reflect their backgrounds.  Perry adds that the children they work with carry these memories into their interactions with them, and their greatest challenge with these children is to build trust and shift their world views.

Perry ends chapter one by highlighting the importance of taking into account biological relativity and the organizing power of our early experiences. He writes that the choices we make as societies will have profound impacts on the trajectory of our societies and our species. There is a need to re-consider societal beliefs and practices around child rearing. He writes: “If we choose well, untapped potentials will emerge. If we remain passive…… we lose the creativity and productivity of millions of children. And we lose our future.”

 

 

 

 Edited    20/10/2023   

Lying                                                                                                                      Autumn 2023

“Lying is the royal road to chaos.”  Sam Harris

“Lies are the social equivalent of toxic waste: Everyone is potentially harmed by their spread.” Sam Harris

 “Lying is, almost by definition, a refusal to cooperate with others. It condenses a lack of trust and trustworthiness into a single act. It is both a failure of understanding and an unwillingness to be understood. To lie is to recoil from relationship”. Sam Harris

For some time now I have wanted to write something about lying and cruelty, which are often connected and can be related to trauma processes. Reading Lying by Sam Harris, PhD, has offered me the opportunity to touch upon one of these themes today. I’d like to mention there are more perspectives and routes to approach the topic of lying, but I have mostly focused on the areas discusssed in the book. Hopefully, the next post will be related to cruelty, as I’m currently reading On Inhumanity: Dehumanization and How to Resist It by David Livingston Smith.

At the beginning of the book Harris writes: “And nowhere do our injuries seem more casually self-inflicted, or the suffering we create more disproportionate to the needs of the moment, than in the lies we tell to other human beings. Lying is the royal road to chaos.” He goes on to define lying, discern types of lying and discuss the consequences of lying. He challenges readers to rethink their assumptions about honesty and truthfulness and how these can contribute to a more honest and fulfilling life, while creating less suffering and chaos for others. He argues that most forms of private vice and public evil are kindled, and also, sustained by lies, and that most acts of betrayal, corruption and fraud, murder and genocide are all made possible by lies. Lying, he writes, has prolonged or precipitated wars.

Harris defines lying as intentionally misleading others when they expect honest communication, .believing one thing while intending to communicate another. To lie is to intentionally lead others to form beliefs and opinions that are not true, and “the more consequential the beliefs—that is, the more a person’s well-being demands a correct understanding of the world or of other people’s opinions—the more consequential the lie.” I could add that outright lying and manipulation of reality are two aspects of gaslighting, in which one attempts through lies and other means to micromanage a group of people or another person and to sew self-doubt, confusion and fear in their mind.

Throughout the book, Harris explores the moral and practical implications of lying and gives suggestions of how to navigate many situations where we might be tempted to tell white lies to spare others from pain or ourselves from discomfort. He provides examples of situations when people might face difficult dilemmas or when lying might be the lesser harm, and emphasizes the importance of cultivating a commitment to honesty and to developing the courage to speaking truthfully.

Harris distinguishes between truth and truthfulness and explains that a person may be impeccably truthful while being mistaken. He claims that to speak truthfully is to accurately represent one’s beliefs in the moment.  Of course, we understand that this may not necessarily be true for many reasons, such as, lack of information and ability to access the whole truth of one’s experience and one’s level of presence in that moment.  Our beliefs about the world are not always true or correct and our beliefs or opinions might change as we grow or learn more. Actually, telling the truth can reveal ways, in which we have not been fully present, ways we want to grow or things we need to look at because honesty can force any dysfunction in one’s life or any abusive dynamics in relationships to the surface. We might find that certain relationships cannot be honestly maintained.

The measure of truthfulness, Harris asserts, is the intent to communicate honestly and to represent one’s degree of uncertainty. We can always reconsider facts and change our views and it should be okay to openly discuss our confusion, conflicting ideas or doubts. He claims that “a commitment to the truth is naturally purifying of error.” Also, he clarifies that holding one’s tongue, or steering a conversation toward topics of relative safety or not revealing everything about oneself, is not lying. A commitment to honesty does not necessarily require that we disclose facts about ourselves or others that we would prefer to keep private. He says, in this case, the truth could well be “I’d rather not say.”

Harris discerns two types of lies. He also considers two categories of ethical transgressions: the bad things we do (acts of commission) and the good things we fail to do (acts of omission). Lying can be both the deliberate falsehoods people tell or spread, but also, the things we don’t tell that could protect someone, or empower them to act on their own and others’ behalf, or find solutions. He focuses more on lies of commission:  “lying at its clearest and most consequential,” but states that most of what he says is relevant to lies of omission and to deception generally.

One type of lies explored in the book are what we refer to as white lies. These are the lies we tell people with the intention of sparing them discomfort or pain, at least in the short term. These are the lies that good people tell while imagining that they are being good in the process, Harris says, but adds that we have no reason to believe that the social conventions that happen to stabilize in primates like ourselves at about the age of eleven will lead to optimal human relationships. In fact, there are many reasons to believe that lying is precisely the sort of behavior we need to outgrow in order to build a better world.

Harris asserts that in telling them – irrespectively, of whether we think that we are lying out of compassion for others – sincerity, authenticity, integrity, mutual understanding and other sources of moral wealth are destroyed the moment we deliberately misrepresent our beliefs. Also, he says, it is difficult to spot the damage we do in the process or the long term consequences. Additionally, by lying or not telling the truth, we deny our friends access to reality and the resulting ignorance based on falsehoods may not help them act wisely or solve a problem, and can actually harm them in ways we did not anticipate.  Lying he suggests is to infringe on the freedom of those we care about.

Another type of white lie he discusses is false encouragement, which he believes can be a kind of theft because it steals time, energy, and motivation that a person could put toward some other purpose.  Harris also asserts that dishonest feedback or insincere praise is like treating others like children, “while failing to help them prepare for encounters with those who will judge them like adults.” He believes that unless someone is suicidal deciding how much he should know about himself seems the quintessence of arrogance. At this point I need to add that we do need to be very careful and aware of our deeper motivations and intentions, to be able to discern any envy, biases or misperceptions on our behalf because we don’t want to be “candle blower outers” [Brené Brown’s phrase]. There seems to be a pandemic of this already; therefore, we want to be thoughtful. Harris clarifies that we need to be aware that our judgments aren’t always correct and honesty demands that we communicate any uncertainty we may feel about the relevance of our opinions. We need to be careful that we are not undermining people’s dreams or work and we also need to take into account whether someone can handle the truth, and to consider the best ways we can help someone see more of reality or become more willing to re-evaluate their experience.

He also discusses the common experience of people being deceived by family members or / and medical professionals about medical diagnoses. He refers to his own mother, who was diagnosed with MS when she was in her 30s. He writes: “Rather than feeling grateful and protected, I felt sadness that we hadn’t come together as a family to face her illness and support each other….” In these cases, hiding the truth or telling white lies can deprive us of opportunities for deepening love, compassion, forgiveness, understanding., sharing of wisdom, telling people the things we need to say, and making choices that we would not otherwise make. We are also in some way infantilizing people. Of course, context matters and there are times when telling the truth may not be the best course of action, so while we may be committed to honesty, we also need to be sensitive to each situation.

The consequences of lying are many. Lying erodes trust. Harris writes that suspicion often grows on both sides of a lie and that research indicates that “liars trust those they deceive less than they otherwise might—and the more damaging their lies, the less they trust, or even like, their victims. It seems that in protecting their egos and interpreting their own behavior as justified, liars tend to deprecate the people they lie to.” He further claims that the erosions of trust are especially insidious because they are almost never remedied.

Consistent lying also requires mental accounting, which refers to the process of keeping track of lies. For many people lying will create some dissonance and discomfort, and lies often generate other lies and they must be continually protected from collisions with reality. Harris writes some people are better at this than others, and psychopaths can assume the burden of mental accounting without any obvious distress, but lying unquestionably comes at a psychological cost for the rest of us.

There is also a chapter in the book with the title Big Lies, in which he explores the big lies that have undermined our trust in governments, corporations, public institutions and in people in positions of authority. Harris writes: “Given the fact that corporations and governments sometimes lie, whether to avoid legal liability or to avert public panic, it has become very difficult to spread the truth.” Harris discusses how conscious attempts to lie, distort facts, rig the data or withhold trial data have generated distrust in the public, and how once lies have escaped into the world it is hard to abolish them. He writes: “The lies of the powerful lead us to distrust governments and corporations. The lies of the weak make us callous toward the suffering of others. The lies of conspiracy theorists raise doubts about the honesty of whistle-blowers, even when they are telling the truth. Lies are the social equivalent of toxic waste: Everyone is potentially harmed by their spread.” Finally, when people with authority and power lie it makes lying acceptable and it legitimizes lying and deception as social practices.

Lies and disinformation emanating from those with power also generate confusion and fear, which lead to people becoming passive and disempowered and can be an obstacle in their making choices that could better serve them and humanity at large. We see this with the wars that are going on around the globe at the moment, where disinformation and lies serve to distract or turn our focus on the immediate horrors of each day, which are almost always the result of the culmination of a long course of oppressive and invasive tactics and policies of injustice, elimination or impoverishment  Lies and half truths about historical facts and the complex causality of events  do not only lead us further astray from the truth, but also  do not contribute to the cessation of violence, nor do they foster peace, growth and development.

Therefore, Harris asserts that where we deem it necessary to lie, we should have generally determined that the person to be deceived is both dangerous and unreachable by any recourse to the truth. He provides examples and says that for most of us, such circumstances arise very rarely in life, if ever. He also refers to war and espionage, where the usual rules of cooperation no longer apply, and where “human relationships have broken down or were never established in the first place.” He writes that the moment one begins dropping bombs, or destroying a country’s infrastructure with cyber attacks, lying has become just another weapon in the arsenal. He clarifies that although the need for state secrets is obvious there is no need for governments to lie to their own people. As for the rest of us we need not consider whether our every utterance could compromise national security every time we speak up about something.  Additionally, in relation to espionage he writes that “The ethics of war and espionage are the ethics of emergency—and are, therefore, necessarily limited in scope” and that the role of a spy strikes him as a near total sacrifice of personal ethics for a larger, real or imagined good, and this is a kind of moral self-immolation. On the rare occasion that I’ve watched a spy film I’ve felt that to be a spy requires an annihilation of the self and a deadening of emotions, in some sense a giving up of many aspects of being human.

The book includes an exploration of the benefits of honesty. Firstly, dishonesty and lying are not things that we want others to do to us, so it is only fair that we try, to the best of our abilities, to cultivate honesty. Harris says that if we “consider our dishonesty from the perspective of those we lie to, we recognize that we would feel betrayed if the roles were reversed.” He refers to what we already know from our own experience, but also from research findings, whcih is the fact that trust is deeply rewarding and that lying is associated with less satisfying relationships. He also mentions that honesty is a source of power and a gift we can give to others, and that honest people are a refuge. He writes: “Once one commits to telling the truth, one begins to notice how unusual it is to meet someone who shares this commitment. Honest people are a refuge.”

I will conclude with a few of the main takeaways or points made in the book:

Lies have the power to kindle and sustain private and public injustices and miseries.  Even white lies can often cause suffering and rob people of their ability to protect, heal, solve problems or grow.  A commitment to honesty and to speaking truthfully require courage, but they are necessary for living an ethical and fulfilling life, as well as, building a better society. Honesty is something we can cultivate through becoming more present and aware of our blind spots and biases, but also, through setting an intention.  Context matters and there are times when telling the truth is not the best course of action, and there are situations where lying might prevent a larger harm.

Private and public life

Quotes from A Chorus of Stone: The Private Life of War by Susan Griffin

“…each solitary story belongs to a larger story”

 “Often I have looked back into my past with a new insight only to find that some old, hardly recollected feeling fits into a larger pattern of meaning.”

“Is there a child who existed before the conventional history that we tell of ourselves, one who, though invisible to us, still shapes events, even through this absence?”

Today I’m sharing some more pencil artwork. I’d like to say that one of these drawings is dedicated to my mother-in-law, who succumbed to illness and passed away early. Also, I’m discussing a book I’ve completed reading, in which the writer powerfully reveals our embeddedness in history and our inescapable interdependence, and also, how the public arena and the personal are connected. And I’m referring to the book Το Βραχιόλι της Φωτιάς /  The Baracelet of Fire by Jewish Greek writer Beatrice Saias Magrizou.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In reading the book and through the process of making these drawings I got in touch with the burdens we carry, whether conscious or not, of those that came before us or those living alongside of us and of how history and patriarchy define a lot of what is considered as our individual lives, I felt the physical and emotional weight of the ordinary and often taken for granted oppressed and suppressed lives of women. This realization became more salient while making the portrait of my mother-in-law, who died when I was quite young and she was fifty two.  I felt the commonalities of my own life and the lives of all the mother figures in my life despite our different personalities, experiences, education and circumstances.

The book I’ll be discussing today, A Chorus of Stones by Susan Griffin has received awards and was a Pulitzer Prize finalist. It is a courageous exploration of many things, but mostly the interconnection of our private life and the horrors of war and large scale violence, and the devastation they ultimately, leave behind for generations to come. Griffin reflects on how history, social structures and discourse shape our individual experience out there in the world and in our psychology and body, but also how boys are shaped into men and soldiers. She explores the common threads between destruction and self-destruction at an individual and at a mass level. Through her own and others’ intergenerational stories she examines how dynamics of parenting, childhood, marriage and family interweave with the larger scale events like wars and other destructive processes at a global level. She claims that “each solitary story belongs to a larger story”.

Griffin offers us an understanding of the psychology of war through providing glimpses into the personal lives of many historic figures like British officer Sir Hugh Trenchard, who began as a critic of strategic bombing, but later abandoned this belief, Mahatma Gandhi, Nazi Heinrich Himmler, Sigmund Freud, Ernest Hemingway and many other historical figures, writers and poets, artists, the scientists behind the building of more and more sophisticated weapons, but also ordinary people like the workers at Oak Ridge, a community that was planned around nuclear plants and research facilities. She makes us think about poverty and unemployment and how the only available work in the field of nuclear engineering was the weapons industry. We hold our breath as she tells the stories of a survivor of the bombing of Hiroshima, a soldier exposed to radiation and the attempts to silence him, the history of the atomic testing and the radiation experiments in the late sixties on cancer patients.

Griffin succeeds in creating intimate narratives of the grand architects of war, those that created and those that dropped bombs, soldiers and civilians, survivors and other witnesses to history, and many others whose personal relationships and family histories were impacted or forever changed by war,  Griffin’s psychologically informed accounts show us how early life and personal experiences and the cultural milieu might have shaped the inner lives and worldviews of the architects of violence and those that created history. She also examines how war and large scale violations are rooted in lies and denial that are linked to denial, secrets and lies of families and individuals. She explores the consequences and impact of secrets and secret mechanisms at personal, familial, societal and governmental levels.  She gives examples: “The public was told that old Dresden was bombed to destroy strategic railway lines. There were no railway lines in that part of the city.”

The book contains many threads and layers of stories that are artfully weaved to reveal the bigger tapestry of life. I will only be touching on the central themes. Griffin uses memoir, history, myths, journalism and facts, imagination, juxtapositions, and character sketches to create a powerful narrative. The book reads like a novel. She links and creates bridges across events and lives. At first the narrative might seem fragmentary as Griffin might move from the story of her grandfather or her grandmother’s efforts through: Grammar, Manners. Memorization and Drill, to reshape her as a young child, to a strategic bombing, Hiroshima, a concentration camp in Europe, the Cold War,  the invasions of Vietnam and Iraq. Then we she might lead us to Alabama ,in the USA, where after WWII Wermer von Braun is designing rockets. She writes about the wars of antiquity in Greece and Troy, for instance, and wonders if the Helen of Troy might have been only a caricature of a real woman.  We see into the inner world of Clytemnestra as she witnesses the sacrifice of Iphigenia by  Agamemnon. We learn that this is the second child he takes from her.

Griffin does not only write about the historical facts. For instance, when she writes about Gandhi she makes it possible for us to see what the inner workings of his mind and his inner voices might have been. We see the historical moments that might have defined his making. Similarly, she creates a powerful character sketch of Nazi Heinrich Himmler, who became the architect of the Jewish genocide. We witness his controlling father and stifling upbringing, where a sustained effort is made to utterly stamp emotions out of him, we see him repeating his classmates’ confidences to his father, who is a schoolmaster.

Meanwhile, she uses short italic passages to tell us about cell biology and  the development of weapons and guided missiles in Germany and then by some of the same scientists in the USA. These narratives are like two narrow, parallel rivers moving throughout the book. One river is murky and dark. It constricts our body. It feels more and more menacing as we witness the evolution of weapons into more and more sophisticated tools of destruction. But through this impressive mosaic structure we get to see the depths and breadth of the interconnection of both events and lives across places and time.

Griffin examines the relationship between war and denial and how there is a social structure that fragments events and where one is never allowed to see the effects of what one does.  She writes: “I am not free of [denial] the condition I describe here. I cannot be certain how far back in human history the habit of denial can be traced. But it is at least as old as I am. In our common history, I have found it in the legends surrounding the battle of Troy, and in my own family I have traced it three generations back, to that recent time past when there had been no world wars and my grandparents were young. All that I was taught at home or in school was colored by denial, and thus it became so familiar to me that I did not see it.” And elsewhere she writes: “We are not used to associating our private lives with public events. Yet the histories of families cannot be separated from the histories of nations. To divide them is part of our denial.”

Some level of dissociation must have been in place for the atrocities of war to have taken place by ordinary people, who after cremating civilians, for instance, returned home to walk their dogs and play with their children.  Some level of denial and compartmentalization needs to be in place in order to design bombs or to go to work at a nuclear plant day in day out. She writes: “The men and women who manufacture the trigger mechanisms for nuclear bombs do not tell themselves they are making weapons. They say simply that they are metal forgers.” Elsewhere she notes: “These crimes, these murders of millions, were all carried out in absentia, as if by no one in particular.” One woman she interviewed that had survived one of Himmler’s death camps said she had been turned in by another Jew and tracked down through a net of information a system tracing back to Himmler. Griffin writes: “One can trace every death to an order signed by Himmler, yet these arrests could never have taken place on such a massive scale without this vast system of information. What did they think, those who were enlisted for this work?” She also points to the use of denial to gain some sense of control both at a personal and collective level. She writes: “By denying the truth of an event, one gains the illusion of control.” She links denial with silencing, censorship and holding back the truth and its consequences. She writes: “The troubling nature of censorship is clearer when it falls on the very young. A certain kind of silence, that which comes from holding back the truth, is abusive in itself to a child….”

Griffin also looks at emotions like shame, fear, despair, anger, rage and revenge and finds these both in historical figures and her own self.  She finds the core of her own rage as she remembers being unjustly punishment by her grandmother at the age of eight. At an educational context I was told that unfair punishment has served as an educational strategy since antiquity. She writes about the hidden shame, the fears and the pains that humanity carries, the consequences of these experiences on one’s own body, but also on others, and about the high price we pay as a species for mentally and physically brutalizing people out of their more “authentic” selves. She clarifies that psychology is one important route to understanding our human history and our lives; however, there are many other lens to see through and many reasons and causes to consider. She writes: “Rather a field exists, like a field of gravity that is created by the movements of many bodies. Each life is influenced and it in turn becomes an influence. Whatever is a cause is also an effect. Childhood experience is just one element in the determining field.”

Griffin includes the topic of self destruction and of suicide. Griffin writes that she finds Charlotte’s story especially pertinent now because she addresses the question of self-destruction and she [Griffin] has come to believe that our shared movement toward nuclear war is a movement toward mass suicide.  She introduces us to the young German Jewish artist Charlotte Salomon, who newly married and pregnant died in the holocaust. Charlotte’s work of art titled: Life or Theatre? consists of 769 paintings, that depict her life story with words written on some of the paintings, and an accompanying text and even indicated music, which gives it the form of a theatrical play. In order to view and listen to it online one needs to spend several hours, but it’s worth engaging with it. Most of this work was completed between two arrests.  Charlotte traces this almost unbelievable pattern of suicides in her family and writes she will tell the story so as not to repeat this cycle of self destruction in her family.

Charlotte, through her images and commentary, help us understand how “a menacing public history has been unfolding at the edge of her private story.” Griffin notes that Charlotte was trapped “as if by a vise, one arm of which is the torment of her private life and the other the danger of the public world. Her private troubles are depicted against a background of dramatic historical events. … Her story is simultaneously a story about war and about a family.” Griffin also mentions that in her work in progress about Charlotte’s life and work, Mary Felstiner points out that the suicide rate in Germany at the time was high, and was rising among upper-middle-class women and Jews. Through Griffin’s analysis and Charlotte’s work we catch glimpses of underlying reasons and circumstances. As Charlotte’s grandfather comes to the foreground we catch a glimpse of another thread. We realize that we need to consider patriarchy and the roles and places women have had n society.

There is a painting that shows Charlotte’s mother sitting alone, in a vacant apartment after getting married. Griffin writes one cannot but think of this young woman who just days before, working long hours in the wards of a hospital, was situated at the heart of public life, sitting now by herself with nothing much to do. And elsewhere, she writes that these same qualities of vitality and an independent spirit are the same qualities that fire her self-destruction. Griffin asks:  “Had this opening existed for Charlotte’s mother, would she have continued living? I know that my own mother felt confined in the smallness of domestic life…..  Over time, as many women do, my mother became inseparable from her confinement. She was defined by all she could not do, and then never did and then feared doing. She lost the capacity to imagine any other life,”

Griffin also demonstrates how her own life is connected to Himmler’s life and how our lives are can be connected to or impacted by people and events far away. She writes: “As a man who made history, Heinrich Himmler shaped many childhoods, including, in the most subtle of ways, my own. And an earlier history, a history of governments, of wars, of social customs, an idea of gender….. shaped Heinrich Himmler’s childhood as certainly as any philosophy of child-raising.”  She refers to the impact of the German childrearing experts’ advice to dominate and suppress, and to crush the will of the child. Dr. Schreber advised “The child should be permeated by the impossibility of locking something in his heart.”

Beliefs and ideas, nuclear fallout, pollution, traumas and other miseries travel in time and they cross borders. Himmler made history that had devastating effects miles away from Germany. In her book Το Βραχιόλι της Φωτιάς / The Bracelet of Fire [a summer read] Jewish Greek writer Beatrice Saias Magrizou traces her family’s history in the 20th century in Salonika, where about 96% of the people from the Jewish community there [46.091 people] were sent to Auschwitz.  Only 1950 returned. They found sixty of their synagogues, their cemetery, schools and their properties in ruins. Magrizou’s narrative of betrayal, denial and the procedures of recording every single Jew by the Gestapo, and what followed, are similar to the stories in Griffin’s book.

I will end this piece with two quotes, one from each of these books. Magrizou, referring to herself, writes at the end of her book: “….she felt the need to write about truths, so that the world might become a better place.” Griffin writes: “Only we know that the consequences of every act continue and themselves cause other consequences until a later generation will accept the circumstances created of these acts as inevitable. Unless, instead this generation tries to unravel the mystery.”